Day dreamer~

Some people say I have a good imagination, they'll say, "Whoa, liddat u oso can think of oh?" Basically those are useless stuff, nothing to boast about, I crapped too much, and my brain is full of craps too~ I just think far more useless stuff than normal people do.

Like today, my two other girlfriends and I went for "tuition" at our classmate's condominium, a total of 3.5 guys living together. One of my friend used his toilet, and took quite long to come out. So when she came out I asked, "Why take so long? Installing closed-circuit TV in the toilet oh?" Then what I got back from the owner of the toilet was "Can you say something normal???" Yeah, he has been listening too much of my crappings lately~ You know who you are... By the way thanks to your post, which inspired me to write this...

I used to imagine a lot, or to say day-dream, and night-dream before I sleep too... I don't imagine myself as a princess, waiting for my prince charming, neither do I dream of being a millionaire and how would I spend those money... Ok maybe once in a green moon (it's even rarer than the blue moon) I'll imagine those unrealistic stuff, but most of the time my imaginations or day-dreams are more on the dark side. *pathetic*

Especially when I'm down, my imagination will go wild~ I'll imagine of the consequences of those unhappy stuff, up to the point where I imagine myself dead, or my family members die. My imagination is very visualized, I imagine in pictures, where I can actually "see" and "feel" what goes in my mind~ So most of the time, I'll end up crying, especially when I think of how life sucks, and imagining myself dying, and how heart broken my family and friends will be. At least that'll erase off my suicidal thoughts~

But that was the darkest part of my life, I mean until this point~ Thinking back, I was so foolish and immature, if you want to know more, you can visit my old blog, but I advise you not to, coz it's very emotional and full of negative energy~ So back to the bad imagination part, I don't do it now, seriously~ It's emotionally taxing, and a waste of time, so why do it? And I've found a better way of channeling those negative energy in a more positive way~ One of the ways are blogging and talking nonsense XD

Maybe after that period of my life, I suddenly burst out, or to say walk out from my cave. I talk and crap like I've not spoken for years, not afraid of expressing myself and don't really care what people think of me~ It's just so NOT ME, compared to what I was before... I've outgrown my passive personality to someone I hardly ever know, is this good or what?